Sunday, 12 July 2009

Sorry folks.......

Just needed to post a small piece to say sorry to everyone who loves my blog, and all my followers, because I've been very slack with my writing lately. I've been very sick for about 3 weeks, and it's now getting tiresome :( I have had problems with severe headaches, which meant I ended up being rushed into hospital a few weeks ago to have a lumbar puncture (big needle in my back) and several scans and tests. They haven't found what caused it all but its now left me with 'cluster migraines' so its rare I am free of the nasty headache, the sickness and the flashy lights in my eyes. Pain I can tolerate, it doesn't really stop me doing things, I'm made of tough stuff, but the worst part is the lights. I have been left with that permanently by the looks of it, and need to see an optician next week to see what can be done.

If you can imagine looking at the sun for a minute and then trying to read something on screen or in a book, part of the image disappears behind a flashing 'white noise' and that makes reading very difficult indeed, whole words vanish but reappear seconds later, only to do the same over and over. So you can see why my blogging has lessened, because staring at the screen is incredibly difficult :( I'm absolutely gutted, my eyes are my life, and I read and write so much that the thought of not being able to do as much is killing me.

I actually got an email from a 'friend' the other day saying maybe it was payback time for all the dreadful things I had done, which quite frankly didn't help matters, and no doubt other people will think that way, but hey, we make our bed and now I'm lying in it, in a darkened room with a cold compress on my forehead lol.

So bear with me followers, and stick around, because I have so much to write and so much to say and don't want it all to disappear just because I'm sick at the moment. I will be better soon, I know I will, I have to be, I'm determined, and with the love and support of those around me I will come through it, but if it all goes horribly wrong you will just have to listen to my dulcet tones on podcast instead :)

Thanks for being patient everyone, and I'll be back to my fabulous self before you know it :)

xxxx